I want to thank Jason, and everyone at the Monastery again for welcoming me with such openness. I’m still amazed that I was granted this opportunity to see shining examples of the teachings of A Course in Miracles, and for the first time in a long while, I do not feel alone.
Part of me wanted to stay longer, but beneath that desire was the thought that I would be doing so for the wrong reason; as a way to avoid my problems. The stronger feeling was, and is, that my travels will continue.
Before I left, Jason asked if I had had any insights. What I’m about to share was not yet clear at that time; only on the drive away did it coalesce.
That morning, several lines from a Vance Joy song kept running through my head, “I never should have told you, never should have let you see inside. Don’t want it troubling your mind, won’t you let it be?” This confused me as I could not think of anything that I had said that I felt regret for.
Eventually, the phrase, “don’t want it troubling your mind” stood out. This reminded me that the most prominent fear I had in coming to the Monastery was that I would somehow interfere with its residents’ peace of mind, simply by my presence alone. This belief that I could negatively affect other people’s state of mind has been with me for many years, and has colored many of my past experiences and relationships.
This fear left my awareness soon after I arrived. On the drive away it rose again, but I remembered David saying in one of his videos that minds cannot attack. I cried and laughed, and now feel as if the belief is being (has been?) released.
There are other things that happened that felt important, but I can’t think of them right now.
Since I first turned conscious of the beautiful and awe-inspiring existence of God, I have liked studying many amazing spiritual works just like the Bible (my favorite components would be the Sermon on the Mount and Psalms), the Bhagavad-Gita, the Upanishads, the Koran and the poetry of Kabir and Rumi. Not one of them come near the wonder of a Class in Miracles. Examining it by having an start mind and center, your doubts and troubles rinse away. You become alert to a splendid enjoy heavy within you – deeper than whatever you knew before. The long run starts to appear so bright for you and your liked ones. You are feeling passion for everybody including these you formerly have attempted to leave excluded. These experiences are extremely powerful and sometimes place you down balance a little, but it’s worthwhile: A Class in Miracles introduces one to a enjoy so calm, so solid and therefore universal – you will question how therefore many of the world’s religions, whose intention is supposedly the same knowledge, got therefore off track.
I would like to claim here to any Christian who thinks that his church’s teachings do not truly satisfy his hunger to understand a form, merciful and caring Lord, but is significantly scared to read the Class as a result of others’ statements it is unpredictable with “true” Christianity: Don’t fear! I’ve browse the gospels often times and I promise you that the Course in Wonders is completely in keeping with Jesus’ teachings while he was on earth. Don’t fear the fanatical defenders of exclusionist dogma – these bad people think themselves to be the only companies of Jesus’ concept, and the only real ones worthy of his benefits, while all other will go to hell. A Class in Miracles reflects Jesus’ correct concept: unconditional passion for *all people*. While he was on earth, Jesus believed to judge a pine by their fruit. Therefore give it a decide to try and see how a fruits that ripen in your life taste. When they style bad, you are able to abandon A Course in Miracles. But if they style as sweet as quarry do, and the countless different correct seekers who have found A Course in Wonders to be nothing less than the usual heavenly value, then congratulations – and may your center continually be abundantly full of calm, warm joy.